I know that lots of people will say no, that's it's my right etc but part of me can't help feeling a bit guilty about my planned homebirth.
I told the mw as soon as I was pg that I wanted a homebirth for this, my 2nd baby, and I am now nearly 37 weeks. I can't help getting the distinct impression that it's nothing but trouble to mw's when someone wants a homebirth. Firstly, I have barely seen the same mw twice as the usual one had been off ill for quite a number of months (she's back now), so continuity of care has been an issue anyway but more than one mw has said to me that there are only two mw's on call for homebirth and that if they are busy I'll have to go into hospital etc. I know that I don't have to and that if I insist they are obliged to send someone out but I worry then that I am depriving someone in hospital of a mw; as we are always being told, there are mw shortages. I know that I would just go to hopsital in that situation, but I am starting to wonder if I should just have a hospital birth anyway.
I've just had call from the mw who was supposed to be coming out to the house today to go through the preparation for the birth and presumably leave a homebirth pack, but she's asked me to go to the gp surgery to see her instead as she's been so busy with her clinic today. Part of me thinks I shouldn't be contributing to their workload and part of me is actually slightly concerned with the crap care that I have received so far will extend to the actual birth as well. Or is it just that I am an unassertive wimp?!