I managed to reduce my fear of birth (pain, tearing, induction, internals, emergencies etc) by doing lots of research on natural births, water births, hypnobirthing, positions in labour, The Thompson Method etc.
But last week I was diagnosed with GD and since then all my fears have come back, along with crying everyday and general low mood. I am now all consumed by fears of big babies, the phrase "we will induce you" regardless of my choice and knowing that my natural water birth plan will probably be off the table.
I'm now deliberating requesting a c-section, just to avoid going through the pain of induction and the uncertainty of it all.
Probably doesn't help I watched "This is going to hurt" on BBC to "educate" myself, and had the fear of should dystocia drilled into me!
Have others managed to control blood sugars sufficiently to avoid big babies, induction and c-section, even get in the water? I've managed to keep blood sugar between 4-8 all week but don't know if it gets worse as the weeks go on.
Any tips for reducing birth fear? I usually go with lots of planning and research but I'm acutely aware things just don't go to plan with birth so I don't think thats going to work this time.