Turned into a maniac

[actinglikealoon]

I'm 7+2 with a very much wanted baby after a mmc in November and lots of fertility treatment. I'm really worried, got bad anxiety and just want everything to be okay. I have a scan booked for this week. But this week especially I've noticed I can't stop checking my boobs ! Not to see if they're sore because they're not anyway, but to see if they're still the same size ! They've grown a little and I'm getting obsessive to see if they've deflated or not. I know I sound so ridiculous.
If something was wrong would they shrink back down or stay the same ???
I do suffer from ocd anyway and it feels like it's getting that way...
Can't believe I've just wrote this 🙄

I don't know but I had an MMC in November and am 5 weeks now. I was policing if I was still weeing a lot but I've now just felt my boobs and they feel like they've gone down since the weekend so I have taken on your anxiety

I’m 7 weeks and my boobs haven’t grown at all. They are very sore but are not any bigger

I hope you're anxiety eases up soon :( I know how you feel having had 2 losses last year.
I'm almost 11w now and I've told myself now that I just have to learn to stop worrying and enjoy everything because I don't want to go through the whole pregnancy being anxious or worried about every little thing.
I had nausea at 4 weeks then nothing until 6, then it disappeared at 9 weeks which made me worry again, I've had a scan since and all was okay.
Similarly my boobs were huge and sore and then went down, then a few days later hurt even more than before, now they're down again. It's common for symptoms to come and go. It's like we wish for sickness etc just as an indication that things are going as they should. I hope your scan gives you some reassurance. It's definitely a nerve wracking time, but every pregnancy is different :)

@nannygoatsforme

I don't know but I had an MMC in November and am 5 weeks now. I was policing if I was still weeing a lot but I've now just felt my boobs and they feel like they've gone down since the weekend so I have taken on your anxiety

Oh god I'm sorry for putting it in your head now !

@Nikki037297

I’m 7 weeks and my boobs haven’t grown at all. They are very sore but are not any bigger

I guess I'm just paranoid because mine have grown slightly so now thinking if they go down somethings wrong ! I'd be the same if they were sore and then wasn't

When I was pregnant my boobs didn’t get bigger until later on, second and third trimester. Now baby is 6 weeks old they are even bigger! Don’t worry; there’s no relation to boob size and issues with baby or issues with feeding. Xox

I had three losses and am now 24 weeks. I had NO SYMPTOMS AT ALL for weeks and weeks and weeks. My midwife said if she "had a pound for every pregnant woman with no symptoms that got a perfectly healthy baby she would be a millionaire"

I really get that anxiety, I got through that first trimester living hour by hour but just as a means of me reassuring you!

I completely feel your pain. After 7 miscarriages I was obsessed with squeezing my boobs.

I had miscarriages where they grew and stayed big and sore, I had miscarriages where they lost their soreness and didn’t grow and during my pregnancy they didn’t really get sore until about 7 weeks and they only grew about half a cup to a cup size.

I guess what I’m saying is that there is no way of knowing that everything is or isn’t okay from your boobs. I mean that in the most empathetic way possible because I’ve been there myself so many times.

I really hope your scan goes well.

That's the thing I do have symptoms, I'm getting waves of sickness, reflux, disturbed sleep due to weeing a lot etc but for some reason I've got an obsession with my boobs ! I feel like I'm going mad. It's so tough. With my last pregnancy my symptoms all stopped about 6 weeks and that's when the baby stopped growing. I know I need to just embrace this and remember all pregnancies are different but it's easier said than done.

I completely understand. I'm pregnant from an IVF round following an MMC and a chemical and I've been a bag of nerves. Everyone goes on about the 2ww being tough but the wait from test to viability scan is horrendous. I managed to convince myself it was going to be bad news. It wasn't.

@Cakecakecheese how far along are you now ? I find myself not wanting to think positively for fear of jinxing things. Is this normal?

@actinglikealoon

Completely normal. I didn’t allow myself to get my hopes up or tell anyone who wasn’t my parents until after 20 weeks and even then I didn’t buy anything for the baby until I was nearly 30 weeks because I was afraid of I got complacent then I would jinx it and something would happen to the baby.

Pregnancy after miscarriage is no picnic!!

Well I'm still crazy! I've had two scans now and but still got a thing about my boobs, won't dare mention it to the midwife cause it's embarrassing !
I've got ocd for checking, I do it with the oven, my sons breathing (he's 7!) the plug sockets etc and now it seems I've got it about my boobs lol.
I can convince myself they've got smaller but I think it's because I've sat there messing so much that they probably do appear smaller !

Any advice on how to stop? Can someone reassure me that if something was to go wrong my boobs aren't mystic Meg?!

@actinglikealoon I'm autistic and have OCD too (for me it's keeping things clean and ordered, curtains have to hang in a certain way etc) and I wish I had an answer for this. With me my worst thing was testing every day. I was constantly running over to look at the tests like they would have changed or something. I dealt with that by getting my husband to hide them but... it's not like you could hide your boobs :/

But I can say your boobs definitely aren't Mystic Meg haha :)

@TheBirdintheCave I'm glad there is someone who understands. It's not like I want to be doing this i just get this overwhelming urge to check ! It really drives me insane. Just wish I could realise that my boobs changing aren't going to tell me anything.
Yep can't hide them unfortunately, maybe I should bandage them down 😆