I had a son at 20 years old. Split with his dad when he was 10months old due to domestic violence. I never bothered in another relationship and was always dedicated to me and my child, I had numerous operations on my cervix for endometriosis. Prostap injections and hrt. I was told I’d never have anymore children. Last year i lost my dad to covid. I fell in love with a man I’ve known my whole life, family friend and found out I’m pregnant… 2% chance of survival! I’m giving birth in 5 weeks to a miracle baby boy but still have a terrible guilt for my son… it’s been only me and him for nearly 18 years…