Not exited by pregnancy

[Natasha2021]

Ok so back story, I had a very traumatic twin pregnancy that resulted me carrying 1 of the twins deceased inside me from 19 weeks and birthing him with his brother at 37+5.

I'm pregnant again singleton baby , I feel less than exited for the pregnancy and I'm just constantly wanting too cry about it like I don't wanna be pregnant. I am exited about the baby at the end of the pregnancy however the thought of the pregnancy is terrifying me. I'm almost 13 weeks.
Am I normal?

Aww ofcourse you're normal x

I cant imagine what you're going through just didn't want to read and run

I hope everything settles soon and that you start to enjoy the pregnancy x

I’m sorry for your loss. I think what you feel is very understandable given what you’ve been through. While not the same, I lost my son when I was 14 weeks pregnant (he had a rare genetic disorder). My advice would be to let your midwife know the situation and see what additional measures they can put in place to support you - such as ensuring so far as possible that you always see the same person (I found this helpful as I don’t want to constantly explain the situation) or perhaps referring you to a specialist midwife who can provide mental health support. My midwife/consultant have been very good in that regard and I have had extra appointments which have really just been for reassurance even though there is no sign that this baby is affected by any genetic issue.

@Fleur405

I’m sorry for your loss. I think what you feel is very understandable given what you’ve been through. While not the same, I lost my son when I was 14 weeks pregnant (he had a rare genetic disorder). My advice would be to let your midwife know the situation and see what additional measures they can put in place to support you - such as ensuring so far as possible that you always see the same person (I found this helpful as I don’t want to constantly explain the situation) or perhaps referring you to a specialist midwife who can provide mental health support. My midwife/consultant have been very good in that regard and I have had extra appointments which have really just been for reassurance even though there is no sign that this baby is affected by any genetic issue.

I'm so sorry for your loss , I luckily have a midwife who went through the process of my last pregnancy with me and the team here are very small so they're very aware of my past and situation however I think it's the feeling of guilt. I think it's going too have too be a trip too the midwife and Dr's too discuss it further and put into place things for my scans (I have a severe fear of scans as I never had good news on them) my little boy passed away from a growth restriction.