I'm 23 weeks pregnant after three first trimester MCs. It's taken a while to get here and I am grateful.
However I am struggling with work. I'm meant to be studying (for accountancy exams) alongside work and I can't seem to focus. I can sit and go over and over the same material but I don't seem to be doing any better at the practice questions.
I've got 3 months left til maternity leave (well, annual leave then mat leave) & I just want to get there without anything going wrong. I'm supposed to be squeezing as much as possible out of this placement and focusing on my development and passing exams and I just... don't care. Which sounds awful. But all I want is for the rest of this pregnancy to go OK.
I am anxious and am having some talking therapy but I don't think there's much improvement. The moment I leave my brain unattended it makes up awful scenarios.
I have a performance review in a couple of weeks and it just feels like the least important thing in the world (although of course its important!).