Hi everyone,
I have recently found out I am 13, almost 14 weeks pregnant. This has been a complete shock to me as I usually miss periods every now and again so that was nothing out of the ordinary and I also had no first trimester symptoms that were unusually out of the normal PMS symptoms. No morning sickness, no cravings, anything!
I had unprotected sex once since coming off the pill for health reasons and also took the morning after pill immediately so ending up in this situation has been shocking to say the least.
I am booked in to have a surgical abortion Saturday as I have no other choice in the matter as it is so far along. I feel so silly for not noticing it sooner and also horrendously guilty about the situation. I am a student with no forms of financially supporting a baby, I would have to drop out of studying for my dream career, the baby would not have a father and I am not ready to be a parent. Despite knowing it is the right thing to do I cannot help but feel so selfish and guilty. People have told me it is only a clump of cells but as I am quite far into the pregnancy now I know this is a formed foetus and I am finding that so hard to deal with. I would love to have a baby and have always dreamed of being a mum, I already feel so attached to it . I know I have worked so hard to get where I am now and will get this opportunity again, but I am just wondering if anyone has felt like this or has any words of wisdom. I have found comfort in reading positive surgical abortion stories but I am just completely dreading waking up and knowing I am no longer pregnant and the guilt of ending a life :(
I have supportive friends around me but it has been so hard not being unable to confide in my family and also not having a partner to go through this with. This has been such a difficult experience to go through on my own whilst being young and at university so any advice or support would be helpful. Thank you!