Hi all, I'm really hoping I can get some advice from others in a similar position to me or who have been through anything similar.
I'm 27 years old and have been dating my partner for 6 months. He is 33 and has 2 children from a previous relationship. We have been taking things slow and happy with how things ae going.
I was diagnosed with cysts on my ovaries at 21, not full PCOS as I have luckily managed to keep my weight healthy and regulate my periods. But due to this I have generally avoided hormonal contraception and always used condoms.
A few weeks ago we had an 'accident' so I got the MAP straight away. No real worries or side effects.
2 days ago around the time I was due on my period, I did a test as I felt a bit strange. The faintest positive came up, convincing myself it couldn't be I did a digital test that clearly said pregnant. It would make me almost 5 weeks gone.
I am in total shock and torn what to do. I thought I may struggle to conceive so receiving this news has completely threw me off.
I do not feel ready to have a child in any way, the thought of it terrifies me. But on the other hand I have always said I would never terminate.
My partner says the timing isnt ideal but whatever I want to do he will be there and support me, but ultimately I know my life will change the most. And I don't know how I am supposed to make the decision of if we are strong enough to be parents together after so little time.
I am in a stable job, have my own mortage and a great support network. But I don't feel 'ready' , I know people say you never are.
Sorry for ranting, I am hoping that anyone could give me advice of a similar experience and if they chose to continue or terminate.
I also don't want to sound selfish to anyone TTC, I know this is a bit of a miracle baby in my situation. I am just so shocked and cannot process any emotion right now.
Thanks for any comments.