Pregnancy anxiety

[Carebear99]

Firstly I know what will be will be. I'm trying to make that my mantra.

I've posted on here before but I'm an older pregnant woman, aged 39, one child aged 20, have pcos and endometriosis and I'm overweight. This pregnancy was very much longed for, for so long that we gave up hope and accepted we weren't going to have anymore children.

I'm a very anxious person. I'm 7 weeks tomorrow according to scans and I've already got over the belief I was facing an ectopic, then a blighted ovum.

I've had 3 early scans, can see the fetus and at 5w5d and 6w4d we saw its heartbeat, at 6w5d heartbeat was 125bpm. Fetus CRL we were told is 7mm at 6w4d.

The anxiety is crippling me. I read online more about a partial molar pregnancy and I'm convinced I may have that, if not then I'll be convincing myself then the 10 week npit will show genetic abnormalities. I know this isn't normal, I'm always convincing myself of the worst I guess in at attempt to soften the blow if something happens. I'm also going to tell my boss today as I've been really feeling unwell, so I just want to let him know. But I'm worried about telling him when things go wrong (if they do).

I know I've no control over what may or may not happen, that's not something I'm good at generally in life.

I think some of us are just predispositioned to this, I'm 32, no health conditions and already had an uneventful pregnancy 5 years ago. I have convinced myself several times this is ectopic/molar/having a MMC etc, turned up for an early scan at 7 weeks and actually expected bad news, it wasn't.

Statistically, having seen the heart beat now you're far, far more likely to have a successful pregnancy, this is what I have been telling myself.

@Carebear99 I understand exactly how you feel. My advice is to contact your GP and ask for a referral to perinatal mental health team. I did this at the start of a very anxious second pregnancy as I was finding it hard to function. They were very quick- I had my first appointment within a few weeks and it made a huge difference- I had CBT.

I'm now 26 weeks and feeling a lot better. The anxiety won't leave me totally but I can deal with it now and have strategies. I can enjoy the pregnancy.

As PP said, it's so much more likely to be ok than not now you have seen a heartbeat.