Feeling so lonely and low

[Hopeless22]

Not really sure why I'm posting here. Just to say these things to someone I guess.
I found out I was pregnant the week after my mum died in October.
My partner of 14 years left me whilst pregnant then
I miscarried at Christmas. My second scan showed the HB had stopped. Probably from all the stress.
The miscarriage is still not complete (I elected to let it pass naturally). The nurses tell me there is so little left, it's best to just let it come out in my next couple of periods. I feel like i'm going crazy. I feel so hopeless and low. Every day is the same. I spend all day waiting for the day to end in the hope this will be over by tomorrow, or hoping I'll wake up and it was all a dream. I simultaneously feel so, so lonely, yet I don't want to be around anyone. I don't have any space for anyone else's emotions, happy or sad, and I don't want to be the one my friends all pity. I am depressed. Today I have just spent the day in bed. Everything just feels quite hopeless.
I'm 36. I so desperately wanted this baby. The thought of dating and starting again fills me with dread. All my friends are parents. I don't know what to do from here.

I'm so sorry.

You need to get some help. This is a lot of things at once to deal with on your own. See a doctor and also look into online support. The Worst Girl Gang Ever support group on Facebook is really good.

I'm so sorry for your losses @Hopeless22 💔 and can I just say you deserve to be with someone better than your ex. Someone who will support you through the hard times and I know the idea of starting again might be tough but it will be worth it in the end when you find the person you were meant to start a family with!!

Take care of yourself and try and surround yourself with friends and family. they won't be giving you pity, they will just want to make sure you're ok! X

That is so, so much for you to be dealing with, @Hopeless22. I’m so sorry.

I'm so sorry for your losses.

Sounds like you're doing really well considering. That's three major things in quick succession.

Do you have someone you can speak to about this?

Please be kind to yourself and seek some help. Sending all the best xxx

I had a couple of friends who were brilliant through the MC and let me spend lots of time with them at weekends but I was miserable and quiet, just glad of the company. People have started to want their weekends back and I've begun to feel like my misery is no longer welcome. Thanks for your kind words. I am not on Facebook. I was considering calling some sort of support line.

I'm so sorry your dealing with all this, it's so much! I would get in touch with mind as a place to start just someone to talk to and then they can refer you on the right place. They're line is not open until Monday so if I'm you feeling you want to speak to someone sooner Samaritans are amazing too! Sending you so much love 💗

Please ask your GP to refer you for some talking therapy, as what with your mums passing, and everything afterwards, it is understandable you would be depressed!! You need some proper support during this tough time xx

You're weighed down by grief right now, understandably. Once you feel better and you will, try not to feel too hopeless, you have plenty of years left at 36 and there are plenty of options. sending hugs