Anxiety, pregnancy after loss.

[Blxo94]

Hi everyone,

I have had this feeling deep down for a while now but the more close I get to my due date the worse its getting. I'm due in 7 weeks ( will be delivering before then) and I just cannot shake the feeling that baby isn't coming home? Im sorry if this triggers anyone but I just needed to vent somewhere and just put it out there because I'm driving myself mad. I've had 5 losses, different reasonings. This is the furtherest I've ever got since having my son in 2012, and now I'm terrified of something going wrong. I'm looking at all our babies things and panicking incase it never gets used.

Basically... Am I normal?! Pregnancy after loss has been so draining. I thought that once I felt baby move I would settle.. Which I did for a while. But now I'm back to feeling petrified

Im sorry for your losses. I think this is totally normal. I lost a baby at 19 weeks last year, was pregnant again this year and was anxious the whole time. I couldnt quite believe my baby would arrive healthy and come home with me. I did buy baby things before the birth but did have thoughts about them not being used. My son is now 7 weeks old and happy and healthy. I don't have any advice I'm sorry, but just to say it's totally normal to feel this way

@onaloop

Thank you for your message, I just hope this stretch is quick cause its eating away at me. My midwife tried to refer me to perinatal team but I was refused help as I didn't (fit the requirements)! They just tried throwing medication at me which I refuse to take during pregnancy (I suffer depression, anxiety, ptsd). I don't bring it up to my partner because I don't want him to start thinking the same way as he's so excited to finally be here and just can't wait to meet her now. I don't want to ruin his excitement. Just sucks... Being refused help also made me feel very closed off about talking about it aswell cause now I feel I'm being "dramatic"

I'm so happy you got your rainbow baby safely in your arms! Hearing stories like this gives me hope ❤️