Please don’t feel the need to read and comment if you think every baby is a blessing etc.
I feel so stupid. This is a planned pregnancy but I feel so flat and negative about having a baby.
I hit my late 30s and my biological clock kicked in. DP and I decided to start TTC but we didn’t talk enough about it I think. Now I’m pregnant and both of us are terrified.
I can only focus on the negative. What I’m going to lose, all the things I won’t be able to do anymore. I literally can’t imagine any of the good stuff of having a child anymore. DP is a workaholic and selfish about his time when he is home and I’m doubting why I thought he’d make a good father. I’ve spent the last few days with my newborn nephew and just felt nothing.
I can’t tell if this is normal anxiety or a sign I’ve made a terrible mistake. I can easily imagine booking a termination but I don’t know which option I’ll regret more. And I worry that the fact that I can think like this means I’ll be a terrible mother.