I don't know what to think

[pollyparrot45]

I just think I need somewhere to put this down as my head is all over the place.

Have been trying for our 2nd child for almost 12 months now. I'd written off this month and not bothered to track ovulation because it's Christmas and we were due to be really busy. Anyway then we all caught covid so I just didn't think about it.

AF was due on the 19th and I started spotting on this date. All normal. AF never got into full swing and I became suspicious about pregnancy so ordered tests. I had covid and was isolating and they didn't arrive until 24th. I presumed covid was just playing havoc with my cycle tbh.

I did a FRER on the 24th and it was a strong positive BUT I was still spotting - now 5 days! The spotting continued and was brown followed by some brown thick discharge (sorry TMI).

Bleeding has now stopped as of 27/28th.

I did a clear blue digital with weeks on Sunday 26th and it said 2-3 weeks.

I did another today but it still said 2-3 weeks even though I should be 5+3 based on my LMP being 22nd November.

I've spoken to the GP who tried to refer me to EPU but they've declined to see me as the bleeding hasn't been heavy and I've had no pain.

I barely have any symptoms. I had some mild lower back pain but that's gone now. I keep thinking I feel a bit sick but I think I'm imagining it as I'm desperate. Last night my boobs were tender but today there's been not even a hint.

I keep taking cheap tests & they're all positive & quite dark but the clear blue hasn't moved on and they don't look darker just the same.

I've booked a private scan but they wouldn't see me until 7 weeks as I didn't have a positive test until 24th. I tried to explain I hadn't had a negative either it was due to isolating but they wouldn't book me until 11th of January which feels like so long away.

The GP is sympathetic that this is shit but has no idea either way and just said to wait it out. I know that's reasonable but I'm feeling utterly shit and constantly paranoid something isn't right. My gut is just telling me it isn't happening right.

I'm getting myself very fixated and googling constantly. This is not healthy at all. I wasn't at all like this in my first pregnancy.

Anyone else's experiences to give me hope or prepare me for (the likely) bad news in a couple of weeks.

I'm sorry you're going through this. I understand it must be confusing and upsetting.

I had a lot of brown bleeding/discharge and NO symptoms. In fact I never had any pregnancy signs eg no sore breasts, no nausea etc. I did have period like cramps and so assumed all was over. I did have a scan at 6 weeks and all was well. Pregnancy was successful.

The nurse told me at the scan that brown bleeding is old blood and usually ok and that spotting is very normal.

I'm sorry you need to wait for a scan. I'm surprised a private scan won't take you earlier if you're willing to pay!

I don't understand the 2-3 weeks on the test - but I have heard that these can be unreliable. I had my HCG measured and it was the low end of normal and yet totally healthy pregnancy. When I got the results a friend said that it was low and it worried me. My point is this - 2-3 weeks, HCG results, etc it's all very very sketchy so early on and some very strong starts don't get to 12 weeks and some odd beginnings result in a healthy pregnancy.

Try to keep positive.

Ignore the CB test. I didn't get 3+ until gone six weeks. They are notoriously unreliable and I'd ban them if I could!