Hiya sorry if this triggers anyone. I’m currently 25 weeks with my second baby. I had an emergency c section with my first and I am having a planned section with this baby at 38 weeks. I follow Louise Thompson from made in Chelsea and can see she’s had a horrendous birth, nearly dying twice and being in hospital for 5 weeks following the birth. I had sepsis twice after my little girl and had two hospital readmissions so can’t imagine how poorly Louise must’ve been. Anyway it’s set me off Googling causes of death in childbirth and I’m now convinced I’m going to end up with amniotic fluid embolism. I can’t get it out of my head. I’m already having counselling but haven’t got my next appt until end of jan. I’m starting to regret this pregnancy and thinking how selfish if I end up dying and leaving my little girl without a mam and this baby if it would survive. I know I sound crazy but I’m feeling so convinced something like this will happen xx