It's my due date today with my first child.. my partner decided to go out this morning to see his friends and he still hasn't come home. I had my bloody show last night and I just feel like it doesn't matter how I feel or that I spend most of the time on my own, I just don't feel important. On my dads passing anniversary he had gone fishing and didn't come home until late, also on my dads birthday he pissed off out and I didn't see him until late. I just feel like every important date that means something he's never anywhere to be seen. We live together and have been with each other for 7 and a half years. Even when it comes to little things like me asking for a massage whilst my ankles are swollen and I ache everywhere I never get one. Or I get given one that's shit or too hard so I'll ask him to stop. I keep feeling like I'm just not worth it