I'm having a really awful day today. Literally anything is setting me off. I've cried multiple times and just feel fat and lazy and useless. I'm just sitting here crying because I cant fucking DO anything else.
This pregnancy has been awful. I am in so much physical pain with rib flare (I've never felt anything like it - it's constant), back pain is kicking in full force and spd type pains, even strong painkillers aren't cutting it. DS kicks so hard I feel physically bruised. I have to go pee every half an hour even if I don't drink anything, which is impossible because I feel disproportionately dehydrated. I am getting 3 hours sleep a night if I am lucky because of pain and restless legs (I've taken every recommended supplement, tonic, tried cold/heat/compression socks) and when I do get to sleep I wake up to pee - seriously considering a catheter so I don't get disturbed but even then everything else wakes me up anyway.
I can't do anything. I can't sit up even just to fold laundry, I feel like I am suffocating if I lay down in any position. Can't stand and cook myself anything, can't go out (went out a couple of days in a row and it's completely destroyed me physically). I can barely look after my kids and my poor DH (who is amazing and patient and not complaining about it) is having to do everything. I'm sick of having to ask him to get me things even though he has told me to ask for help.
I don't know how much longer I can do this. I can't cope with this for another 6 weeks minimum.