Hi,
I've decided to set up a new thread because I am in a world of despair and don't want to bring the positive tone down on my due date group (even though they are lovely and supportive).
I was 10wks yesterday. I had my midwife appointment on monday & all urine/bloods have come back normal and satisfactory. My scan will be in January some time.
As we get to 12wks a few days after Christmas we thought it would be nice news to share with family & close friends. Although nervous about telling people before a scan etc. so we booked a private one last night.
We got to the place which felt like a retail unit on an industrial estate. A couple before us came our beaming with a long sequence of scan pictures and a digital version to view and take away.
We went in & he said "have you been bleeding", I said no. He said something isn't right. He said there is a sac but no baby.... I immediately teared up and he just said "there's no need to cry". I was completed gobsmacked and devastated. I went to the toilet to compose myself as I felt like we were annoying him. He left the room and came back with a letter stating what he'd seen and a little print out of the scan. He said take it to a hospital. I left in tears not understanding. When we asked questions he didn't seem to care or know the answers. He also said the sac measured 6+2. There appeared to be a small particle, which he said himself but he dismissed it when we said is that the baby.
My OH is being really positive and suggesting that it's too early and a cowboy set up. Whereas I am feeling devastated. I sobbed myself to sleep & woke up at 3 & cried some more.
I want to be positive as I believe in a healthy mindset and I don't want to discourage the baby from growing it he/she is in there... but I also want to be realistic and I don't want to go through the shock again last night if I kid myself.
I don't know if the 4wks gap (10wks but measuring 6wks) is good because it means it's just earlier than I thought. Or if that in fact shows a stop in growth weeks ago.
I don't know what to do with the information or how to feel. I feel like I'm in a bad dream and am worried about what this means for the future.
I spoke to EPU last night and they have booked me in for Monday. But that feels like an awful long wait. I can't get through to a midwife.
Any advice or similar stories out there?