Hello, I just wanted to share my heartbreaking experience that has just happen to me. Mumsnet has been the place for me to always find other peoples experiences so here’s mine.
The moment I found found out I was pregnant I worried, as last year my baby was sick with DS and other things that my baby would not live to full term so I had a terminate at 17 weeks. So I had many scans this pregnancy, 5 weeks strong heartbeat, 8 weeks strong heartbeat, 12 weeks I was so scared for my scan but I got the all clear. 14 weeks scan all good, saw baby moving and good heart beat. 16 weeks I booked a private gender scan and my world broke with I’m afraid it’s bad news. No heartbeat. I couldn’t believe it cause I thought I was out the danger zone and my anxiety was not expecting that.
I went hospital to confirm this and it was correct. I had to take a tablet to induce my labour and to come back the next day.
I got put on labour ward but a Special room that was really nice to deliver my baby. They inserted my second tablet in me. I asked for the strongest pain relief which was morphine.
4 hours later my baby had come while I went toilet, holding on to the morphine rail that had to come with me I cried my eyes out saying to the midwife, how can life be so cruel. She asked me to push as the placenta was nit coming out but I just couldn’t. I sat in the bed weak and dazed, with no words.
Few hours went by and the midwife cut the cord and laid my baby in a white basket with a white knitted small cover and put my baby next to me. I asked for time to myself, I was scared but brave to say goodbye. My baby was tiny but all was there. I had so my questions to ask but I know I was getting nothing for now.
The night wasn’t over as I was sick and Losing blood, heart rate dropped so put on a drip. I was exhausted. They inserted the tablet again to get the placenta out but I was just bleed I got and weak & only bits was coming out. My partner watched everything & this would had been his first baby. I have a 6 year old with another person. So we was all looking forward to this precious human coming.
The next day doctors came around and said they had no one to scan me as it was Sunday. I wanted to leave as I had no sleep and couldn’t be there another night. So Monday scan was booked to check for placenta and tissue.
We go again with another round of tablets under my tongue and was not ready for them to get the rest out with another procedure.
I am broken, I know time will heal. So many people are pregnant around me. I keep thinking is it me as I’m 36 years old and my eggs ain’t good enough now.
I have to wait for a full report which takes up to 12 weeks. My baby came in at 17+ 5 weeks weighing 28 grams so I’m confused as I should only been 16 weeks. Maybe a growth problem. I got really bad migraines a week before my miscarriage but iron levels was spot on. I also said to my midwife I could t feel baby that much of that week either. Has anyone had a baby come out bigger than there gestation?
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