I’m so scared of progesterone side effects

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My anxiety is at an all time high

Previous losses, had an early scan at 5+2 just to check baby was there. Sac in the right place, yolk sac seen, measuring perfectly for 5+2. Consultant popped me on progesterone and encouraged me to keep on taking aspirin.

I have been down an internet rabbit hole and I am terrified. I saw some TTC ladies who are taking progesterone pessaries bemoaning that pregnancy symptoms can be caused by progesterone and this was tricking them.

All I can think is that my sickness and food aversion and cramping and fatigue is just the progesterone and my HCG isn’t rising and my baby has died

I tried to speak to my midwife and she just said it wasn’t her remit and she doesn’t know anything about progesterone

I’m so scared they have gone

I have an early scan on Friday with my private doctor unless the EPU can see me this week and all I can think about is they are going to say no heartbeat or slow heartbeat and I will have to wait for 2 weeks again for the inevitable

I am so scared of letting everyone down. I don’t trust my body

Sorry you’re going through a stressful time. Hope everything goes well for your upcoming scan. Whatever happens, you are not letting anyone down
Even if your symptoms were actually side effects from the progesterone, that wouldn’t necessarily be a negative. Some women have no or really mild symptoms and perfectly healthy pregnancies & babies. (I personally spent weeks worrying something was wrong as didn’t have symptoms or ‘feel’ pregnant).

In the end trying to think that I was ‘pregnant until proven otherwise’ helped me to some extent. Right now, the facts you have - sac in the right place, yolk sac seen & perfect size - are all positive.

Because I did Ivf I have taken loads of progesterone supplements but the side effects they give me are sooo different from being pregnant. It does slow down my digestive system, makes me bloated, gives me cramps and makes me incredibly anxious which pregnancy does as well. But only pregnancy (HcG) gives me fatigue, makes me nauseous and gives me food aversion. It also makes me wee loads. The feeling in general is so different, I don't think you need to worry. If you have been pregnant before I really think you would recognise the different feeling of just taking progesterone without having any HCG.
But I've had previous losses too and understand what a terribly anxious time pregnancy can be. I could only get through one day at a time. The only thing that keeps me going is that if I want a baby I cannot skip this part. I have to hang on however horrific it is. The only other option is completely giving up. Take care- I hope it all goes well