I found out today that I'm 6-weeks pregnant. It was very much unplanned, I came off the pill as it was wreaking havoc with my body and was using the app Flo to track my fertility to avoid this situation occurring.
I'm 26, and have been with my partner for coming up to two years. We've had a bit of a whirlwind relationship, and already own a flat together. I'm 100% confident that he is the person for me, but know we've not been together long at all.
We're both career driven, and earn a decent salary for our ages. Financially, having a baby would be a stretch, but doable. I'm not ready to take a break from my career yet, but also know this would happen whenever I eventually did want to have children.
We're not happy living where we do, and were planning on saving to move back to London, where we're both from. We're already lonely here, and I'm worried about doing this on my own, with no other mums my age with a similar worldview to me in the local area.
We both come from broken homes, and I'm terrified of the same happening to me and my children. I'm scared that even though we've lived together since we met and have a really close bond - you can't predict the toll having a baby would bring to your relationship and how that might change a person.
I've always longed to be a mother, and have watched my baby siblings grow up too. Watching them go from bump to baby and into fantastic people makes me struggle with the idea of getting a termination. But there are pros and cons to both.
My partners stepsister found out yesterday that she has womb cancer which may be terminal. Not only is it awful, it's also compounded the feeling to both of us that you never know what the future holds. We may come to try again and find it's not meant to be and that we struggle with fertility. This is our biggest worry, especially as I struggle with polycystic ovaries.
I'm really struggling to untangle my feelings here, if anyone is able to share their experiences, advice, or thoughts I would really appreciate it.