Hey I’m just wondering if anyone else suffers with anxiety and can help/understand me and advise me on what to do.
I suffer from anxiety and have done all my life. I get nervous about EVERYTHING for no reason at all. Whether it’s going to the shop, meeting a friend, going to a hair appointment, everything gets my heart racing.
I’m 17 weeks pregnant with my second child. I’ve never liked hospitals/doctors and it’s just another thing that makes me nervous and makes my heart race - I’ve been like this literally since a child. Naturally because my heart goes through the roof, so does my blood pressure so at every GP/Hospital appointment it gets bought up.
Obviously being pregnant I have to have frequent blood pressure & urine checks. Just knowing I need to have my blood pressure checked causes me anxiety and it’s always high. At home however, it’s always perfect if not, lower than it should be! Every time it gets bought up at my hospital appointments it seems to make me worse the next time because I begin to dread it. I know it seems so silly but I can’t help how my mind works.
Today my blood pressure in hospital was 144/80. The doctor kept telling me this was concerning and was debating starting me on tablets. Obviously I am aware that pre-eclampsia is a risk but I regularly check my blood pressure at home and it’s always fine, as is my urine. I feel like no doctor is listening to me, it’s making me dread every appointment and I feel like I’m the only one in the world who feels like this.
I was exactly the same in my first pregnancy and experienced the exact same problems and I’m really tired of it now. My midwife this time around is the same midwife I had with my first baby who knows exactly what I was like then and what I’m like now. I’m thinking to ring her tomorrow to talk about it because I just feel so crappy about it. If my leg was broken I wouldn’t be expected to walk and I just feel like the same approach isn’t applied when you struggle with your mental health, why is it so hard for them to understand it’s the hospital setting causing my high blood pressure.
Sorry for the long post, just looking for some advice / anyone that’s been in a similar situation x