I am currently about 9.5 weeks pregnant with my third pregnancy (1st early miscarriage, 2nd being my DD). This post might be long but I really need to get it all off my chest somewhere.
About two weeks ago I started noticing some slightly brown discharge. I didn't act on it as it only seemed to appear first thing in the morning after a busy and tiring day. Then last Friday the discharge became a bit of a darker brown, so I contacted my EPU. I was told to come in Saturday where they took a swab of my cervix, and the nurse noticed I have a cervical ectropion/cervical erosion which she believed was causing the bleeding. My cervix was shut, and I was sent away told to call back if I "see anything more alarming".
Roll on Monday morning just before I left for my booking appointment, and my discharge is now also slightly pink. I spoke to the midwife at my booking appointment who told me pink and brown when I wipe are not a concern with a ectropion cervix, especially if I have no pain, which I hadn't had so far. I went home reassured and feeling positive, looking forward to getting my 12 week scan date through the post.
Wednesday morning I wake up and the discharge is definitely more red. I call the EPU again and the nurse pretty much dismisses me because of the ectropion. She says unless I'm in pain and I've got dark blood soaking a pad, they won't see me. I had a bit of a cry when I came off the phone and decided to book a private scan for this Saturday, as I was feeling frustrated that just because I have an ectropion they won't look into anything else. I also felt anxious last night, as usually my symptoms (fatigue, nausea) flare up late afternoon and I had nothing yesterday, other than gagging at the smell of my daughter's scrambled eggs.
Well this morning I had dark red blood. It's still only when I wipe. If I've not been to the toilet in a while a bit will go on the pad, but not lots. It's still mucus likenin consistency. But I also have a pain in my left hip joint, which feels stiff when I walk, and lower back pain that comes and goes. I don't have any stomach cramps other than the odd pull and twinge that I normally experience.
So I call the EPU yet again and when I get to speak to a nurse I just break down in tears. She has referred me for a scan which I'm having tomorrow morning at 11:30am.
I'm so scared. Not of the results as I've pretty much accepted that this baby is gone. But my husband is the only person who can watch our two year old tomorrow. And we don't drive so I'm going to have to get the bus there and back. I suffer from social anxiety and general anxiety which really doesn't help. Plus the two friends I told about my pregnancy seem to be avoiding my messages. I feel so isolated and frustrated. I'm terrified of this also being an ectopic. And the thought of having to go through the first trimester yet again if we are lucky enough to fall pregnant in the future.
Sorry for the long post. Nobody has to read, but thank you if you did get this far.