Induced with my first and haemorrhaged lost 1.5L she was 8LB 8, Induced again with my son he was 9LB 9 I haemorrhaged again but this time they couldn't stop it, I was rushed to theatre had to sign for a hysterectomy but luckily they stopped it with a balloon and vaginal pack, I had a blood transfusion and had to stay in bed for over 24 hours on high dependency, terrifying a few months later I had an appointment with the sister midwife who went through what happened she said my uterus basically gives up after delivering the baby and placenta and doesn't contract so the best option if I had another would be a c-section in the hope that it will contract after delivery.
Now pregnant with baby #3 and I am petrified I am going to die? Had none of this fear before getting pregnant, didn't even have any ptsd from the horrific experience but now its like a slap in the face and I cry most day's at the thought of leaving my babies behind 
Has anyone else experienced a severe PPH losing over 2.5/3L of blood and gone on to have another baby?