I don't know where to start I feel like I could write a whole book on how I'm feeling right now.
I've always been a size 6/8 before pregnancy and it look me a long time to get a bump.
I was desperate for one! So when I got to the second trimester I felt amazing. Lots of energy, bump was finally showing, skin was great, felt so sexy pregnant.
Fast forward to the third trimester (now 38+3) and I feel so fat and unattractive. Now I know I definitely don't look fat. It's just how I feel. I wasn't expecting the amount of body changes. I've put on about 3 stone which I know is normal but I'm just not used to this. My mum never got stretch marks so I wasn't really expecting any. I have them everywhere. At first I wasn't bothered but the more I'm getting the more unattractive I feel. This baby is so longed for after a miscarriage but I just feel so not myself.
I feel so self conscious getting changed in front of dp and I feel like he doesn't find me attractive pregnant at all.
I'll put an outfit on and feel great and then someone will take a picture of me and I just look like a different person. So many chins and puffiness.
He keeps making excuses not to have sex, I just feel so unloved and like he doesn't fancy me anymore. It doesn't help that if I have a hormonal outburst he'll mention how much I've changed since being pregnant (mentally, of course what does he expect) and it's making me more and more insecure. He is affectionate sometimes but It's normally me asking for lots of cuddles. I guess I just need some reassurance.
Did anyone else feel like this? Please don't judge me. I am so grateful for this journey and this baby is so wanted but I just feel rotten. It's really bringing me down.
I tried asking dp how he felt about having sex earlier as I told him I feel very detached from him and I'd like to know how he's feeling so we're on the same page and so I don't feel like it's just because he doesn't find me as attractive. He basically said he does want to but he finds it's so weird with the baby in there. Now I do see some truth in this but I do feel like my body changes are also a turn off, I didn't say this though.
He got so defensive about it and it turned into a massive argument which then ended with 'why would I want to have sex with someone that just moans at me all the time'
Now I promise I wasn't moaning I genuinely was curious so how he felt, just so I know what page he is on and not to take it personally. Can anyone see from an outside point how he might be feeling?
Please help, someone tell me I'm not alone .
Do you think this is my issue and hang up that's making it all worse?