PND feeling low tonight

[Lovethewinter]

I had my daughter last week and I knew this might be coming as this is what happened with my first. I get the most awful intrusive thoughts and a feeling of dread/impending doom that usually starts in the afternoon and gets gradually worse until I crack and am in floods of tears in the evening. I'm having to avoid most tv/songs/conversation topics because they trigger the horrible thoughts.
I already have support in place and started sertraline again today but it won't take effect yet. I'm just having a really low one tonight and am really sad that this is ruining what should be a really special time again :(
Thanks if you got this far. Not sure what I'm looking for really just feel horrible.

I’m so sorry you’re going through this, such a horrible thing to be experiencing and I’m sorry that you’re having a particularly low night tonight. No particular words of wisdom I’m afraid but just wanted to make sure you know you’re not alone - hang tight, things will get better. Sending all the best

I’m so sorry you’re feeling like this - I really struggled after my son was born too, and would cry in the evenings a lot, thinking about the night ahead (he wasn’t a good sleeper). One thing that you said that stood out to me is that it’s ruining what should be a special time. I really struggled thinking I wasn’t a good enough mother because I hated the newborn days, didn’t get that “rush of love” feeling til 3 months in, and before that didn’t feel like having my son was something to celebrate at all, even when everyone else seemed to think I should be so happy. But I’ve come to realise so much of what we think having a newborn is like is ridiculous marketing/unrealistic social media. You aren’t letting anyone down by not enjoying it right now.

Just offering a hand hold. The meds will help when they kick in, you sound self aware and understand what’s happening.

Therapy to talk things through regularly would help as would a regular baby break when you can have a little time to yourself.

@Seashell88 thank you it helps just to say about it somewhere

@Peelspeelspeels I'm sorry for what you went through. I think you're right it's painted as magical but the reality is sleep deprivation, a massive upheaval of what was 'normal' and hormones causing lots of problems (for me anyway). I just want the time my husband has off to be nice and not be crying every night!

Sending you hugs. Hormones are shitty little buggers (I am very hormonally sensitive, also had pnd). Just keep in mind you got over your last experience - 100% success rate! Others are right, it's not the best time, don't worry about that, those times will come when your not all so sleep deprived. Things Will get better, have a plan for help - that and ssri's helped me reasonably quickly x