Please help ease my nerves!

[KerryW87]

Hi everyone,

I know no one can tell me anything really, I'm just completely overwhelmed right now and need someone to settle my frantic mind!

To be brief, I sadly lost my wee boy last July, he was born halfway through pregnancy. Since then, we've had no success in falling pregnant. On cycle 15 currently.

I'm only 10dpo today and I don't know WHAT possessed me to test in the evening as I never do....but it was positive! I still have sore boobs and cramps as I always do before my period.

My partner is out at work, I'm completely in shock. I'm so completely ecstatic and can't quite believe it....but stupidly now scolding myself for testing at 10dpo since I usually wait for AF date and worried about chemicals!

Are chemicals rare? I hope I'm just being nuts and chances are everything is ok?

Sorry if this is a ramble, just can't quite believe it after 15 long months and just so hope it's actually true!

Hope everyone is well :)

Hey -

Sorry to hear about your little boy 😔 sending hugs.

I can't ease your mind as I do not know the statistics but I wanted to say CONGRATULATIONS!!! That's a clear positive at 10DPO!!! I really hope everything continues this positive for you xx

@NinaJames Thank you so much ❤️ It's been the most difficult time of my life, miss him terribly but grateful to have had good family and friends the last year to help me when I was in the depths of it, and stuck in the Groundhog Day existence that is TTC for 15 months!

Thank you! I so hope so! I think sometimes the more you read online the worse you make it for yourself really? 😂🙈 Could only be happy for a minute and then the panic set in! My consultant reminded me last year that most babies DO make it, so let's hope this wee one does - we've waited a long time for them ❤️

Congratulations @KerryW87 - this is a nice line for 10dpo 🥰 I'm sorry to read your news, I can't imagine the pain.

I tested early in July (around the same time as you) and it did sadly end in a CP. I'm now almost 8 weeks pregnant! I so hope it's a sticky pregnancy in your case and you go onto having your beautiful baby. Take it easy and relax 😊

Sorry to hear about the loss of your son

That's a great line for 10DPO, I don't think mine was that dark when I tested at 13DPO (36 weeks pregnant now!)

Wishing you all the best

@babyboybluex Oh I'm so sorry to hear that :( I'm so glad you're pregnant again ❤️ That's a worry. I wish I hadn't tested so early, it's all we've talked about every day since last summer and now it's here I'm just in such a panic about losing it and being back to square one...which helps no one, I know. I so hope it does stick, thank you ❤️

@mooloop Thank you so much! I can't believe it might actually be my time - 15 months of counselling and OPKs and vitamins and acupuncture...it's been a shift as I'm sure everyone on here will know! I just so hope this baby makes it, that's put my mind at ease to hear it's a good line :)

Also congrats! You're on the home stretch...how exciting! 😍

@KerryW87 I can't imagine what it's been like for you 💔

Every day I ready something else online that worries me!! But I guess I go looking for it!!! Honestly it's such a great line... I've had one chemical (a month before I fell pregnant with this baby (12 weeks now)) and my line was never as strong as that (I've attached a picture for you).

Here to chat to anytime if you need a reassurance / ear to listen etc xx

@KerryW87 that looks like a great positive to me!!! Congratulations!!! Keep us posted!! Xx