Does anyone have any experience of this?
Some background..
I have one DS (4) who was born after 3 MC. I had a very stressful induction with my waters breaking after my DH had to go home. Long story short, I ended up with a very traumatic rotational forceps delivery, my DS turned blue and floppy while I was feeding him and was taken to NICU where it was discovered he had group B Strep. (I was tested privately at 38w and it was negative.. I'm convinced I got it in the hospital but that's another story). I had an episiotomy and tore which by the time I got out of hospital I was badly infected (I wasn't checked once in hospital). I ended up with PTSD as a result.
Fast forward 4 years and I'm pregnant again. I'm moody all the time and at first I put it down to hormones but I genuinely think I have antenatal anxiety. I'm so stressed and worried about the birth and terrified of it happening again. When I mentioned my DS birth to my midwife she said she might get me to meet the consultant and talk about an ELCS which I dont want (unless medically necessary)
I don't know what I'm asking here. Maybe anyone been in a similar situation or maybe just advice or a hand hold ❤ I'm 13 weeks so a long time to go with constant worry 😢