Ok paranoid person alert something I never thought I’d be. Desperately trying to not allow this to trigger my bipolar (which pregnancy has never done and I’m
Normally so well and functioning).
But my pregnancy symptoms have gone! :( I was wondering if any one can tell me good or bad what their outcome was with this kind of thing? Or offer any science as to why this might happen?
First cycle TTC and so first time using early pregnancy tests. It’s taken me over two years to try again after a twin M/C which nearly cost me my life and future chances of having a baby.
So by my ovulation test which fits in with my normal cycle data I am 3 weeks 4 days pregnant. First time using early tests normally I test when period is late either on the day or a few days after so I can’t say that I’m used to knowing I’m pregnant this early on. I don’t think I normally get symptoms till around 4.5 - 5 weeks so new to me and I can’t trust myself anymore due to paranoia (lost two sets of twins and a single now and the last loss tipped me over the edge evidently).
Using first response tests I got a BFP on the 10th my period is due on the 15th. So 5 days before period.. it was a big fat lovely beautiful pink one :) backed up by clear blue digital saying pregnant 1-2 weeks., all adds up With ovulation date. The day before on the FR test I got a visible but not solid line the day before that a weak need line eyes to see it but there. So progression was good..
3 days before the test my boobs started to get sore and the pain was very significant and yesterday and the day before was horrid soreness but I was loving it. Gave me hope! Today nothing!! I’m So scared!
I’ve googled I’ve searched this platform and I’m trying to be calm but I don’t know.. a lot of MC resources are telling me this is bad!!! But I wondered if I could get some real life accounts off here 🙏🏼🙏🏼
What scares me is the covid situation putting me at risk again to pass a twin pregnancy at home. Out of 7 pregnancies 3 have been twins with a single loss at 9 weeks.. I am classed as high risk for twins now. Normally I would have early scans now because of this but covid has seen it be emergencies only.. I’m not classed as emergency thankfully and I’d never lie to get seen so I have to wait it out hence why I’m here :)
GPS can’t do bloods as no bottles. With my twin losses my body hangs on till 12 weeks and over and thankfully one of them losses was medically managed sadly an EPU unit that is nurse led in 2019 saw some fatal errors that nearly cost me my life… so I’m
So scared history may repeat. That I will have to go through a loss at home again with our nearest hospital being 28 miles away from me..
As is life my hours at work were cut for the past 9 months by half and I was let go 2 months ago :( so money is so tight I can’t book an early scan as every penny is accounted for. I start a new job In 4 weeks and will be paid 3 weeks after so we will be ok in the end. OH work has picked back up again after 9 months of not knowing where we are we are going to be ok but it means a reassurance scan privately isn’t an option. I wish it was.
The NHS said they MIGHT see me at 9 weeks but will possibly just make sure my dating scan is around ten weeks “best they can do”
I’m working real hard to calm down and get rational but I do have PTSD from literally waking up in hospital with drains and tubes losing two days of my life then the reality of what saw me there hit in. I’ve had private therapy for the last 13 months and I’m doing good.. but this loss of symptoms which it deffo is has sent me on a fast downward spiral so quickly!
I am actually a psychologist myself so you would think I’d be getting myself sorted but NO! I’m a mess..
Thanks In advance if you have read this far.. and seriously if you have a bad experience please share too. It won’t make me feel worse.
I still want to frequently urinate and still getting my ligament stabs around my tummy which I know is normal for me. Never been a sicky pregnant person so can’t go off that
But my boobs went from don’t touch me to I can swing them around…. prod! Poke! Squeeze! AND have a small child dance on them with no issues at all 😂😂🙈🙈
Thanks ladies xxxxxx