I have been booked in for an induction and I am absolutely petrified. I watched a few birth vlogs about it on youtube and they were great in terms of the information provided and what the process is but all of them said the pain was a lot more intense than a spontaneous birth and the time it took was also painful. (my last birth was a few hours start to finish) The Dr I saw today said they often take 3 days from start to finish!!!!
I wanted to labour at home for as long as possible then go to the hospital to give birth. It feels like everything I had planned has gone out of the window and it is quite hard to adjust my expectations.
But as I say the fear of it all for me is massive too. I am scared of how much more painful it will be and how I will cope. The hormone drip sounds horrendous!
I had an epidural in the past and hated it so wanted to avoid that but again I feel that I can't rule that out now because of the change in everything. I am trying to re-write my birth plan so that I know what to do but I feel completely lost with it and I have been really tearful all day that it won't be the birth I wanted. I know i will feel better about it tomorrow and today's emotions are probably just a bit of a shock to the system but I don't know how to process it all and DP just doesn't understand how scared I am about it all.