This is just a rant really but I feel so anxious and stressed..getting overwhelmed by things that wouldn’t usually bother me too much and sudden panic attacks. I’m 30 weeks pregnant in my second pregnancy..I have a high stress demanding job and to be honest I think I’ve just taken on more than I can deal with on top of a none sleeping toddler. It’s been working 12 hour days, 4 days a week catching up evenings at weekends and seem to have gotten every cold or infection going (except covid) this year so think I’ve just reached my limit.
I’m usually very confident in my job but the last couple of weeks I feel totally incompetent, like I can’t think straight and seem to be barely producing anything despite trying to work flat out and taking no breaks. I’ve never experienced it before I just can’t think clearly and keep having panic attacks which I haven’t had In years.
I’m self employed and today I’ve had to hand over my current project with a long standing client to someone else..I’ve told them I have pregnancy health issues but I feel so guilty and disappointed with myself for not being able to cope. I have enough saved that I can probably finish early now but I’ve had to make the decision for my mental health...just worried about what the hells happening to me I don’t feel myself at all. I hate letting people down and haven’t liked lying to a client but didn’t really want to discuss my mental health.
Wondering if anyone else has been / is going through something similar..I didn’t have this in my first pregnancy but I think I had a lot more rest with no other children and work wasn’t as busy.