Gestational diabetes ... fucking sick of it and is it even dangerous??

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I am so fucking sick of this. The GD process / journey is making me absolutely hate being pregnant.

I have had it with my 2 pregnancies. I am only 18 weeks and already been injecting insulin for fasting for around 2 weeks (I have a phobia of needles so this is a rigmarole every night). Sometimes my bloods are good sometimes not. Makes no difference what I eat or if I exercise. I can eat exactly the same thing on different days and have wildly different readings during the day or my fasting bloods. I can't make head nor tail of it. I am constantly confused.

1st pregnancy they told me my baby was going to be massive. He came out 7lb. From what I've read online, on forums etc, this happens ALL THE TIME. Women being told their baby is going to be huge but actually they aren't? Wtf is that all about?

I don't understand the risks to baby. I'm becoming more and more convinced that high blood sugar isn't actually that bad and the midwives are shitting us up for no real reason. Which doesn't make sense but neither do my readings 🤷‍♀️

I just feel like giving up. I just feel so trapped and down about it. I feel like not eating so I don't have to go through the process. Or just eating what the hell i want because really...what's the worst that can happen?? I think I am trying to convince myself it's not dangerous because I can't seem to get it right.

I can't do this for another 5 months 😢

Can someone please give me a gentle shake, or a hand hold, or something. My husband is great, supportive, trying to help with my diet and moods...but he can't fully understand how I feel. Does anyone relate??

You have some good replies here already. Mine was well controlled and baby came out at 6 lbs 7oz but she had hypoglycemia and they were really worried about her for a few days. I get the frustration but the rigamarole is undoubtedly necessary. Hugs OP

So pleased to read that update!

OP you sound amazing, to admit you're struggling is one thing, and then to take on board what people are saying, absorb it and plan to change things and actually do that I'd great. Glad your DH is supportive too, it sounds like you can talk to him and lean on him for support which is so important, and the meal planning etc sounds like it will make things easier and better for you. Please do reach out to your midwife as well, they should be able to refer you to one who specialises in GD.

Yesterday I was truly in a pit of despair about it all, now I feel well able for it. Honestly can't thank you enough. I'm starting to feel baby move too, last night the little rascal kept me awake - it was lovely. And focused me, made me feel determination.

To pp who asked - I am due early Feb but I think I will be having c section, likely a couple of weeks early - so mid to end of Jan. I can't wait!

I'm eleven weeks and just been diagnosed

We can do this!

Let's help support eachother - can do a mini wattsapp group if easier to share meals and snacks?

I too had GD in last pregnancy and my son was born at 6lb 10