Had a horrible experience today. Was having a great day taking my toddler out. He was on his bike and somehow went over his bike then kept rolling down and fell into a river. I have no idea how it happened, it was something out of a nightmare. In a split second before I knew what had happened we were both in the water. I guess I tried to catch him and fell over myself. I got completely submerged in water but my toddler miraculously kept his head out. I then had to push him back up and pull myself up through the brambles. We have a few scratches but otherwise fine but mentally I'm a complete mess. Kept it breezy all evening for the sake of my toddler who seems perfectly fine but now he is in bed I am having a complete meltdown.
So worried about him and the baby. I tried ringing 111 to see if we needed to be checked but I'm in a queue and no one picks up. I'm worried he'll have secondary drowning or be sick from the germs. Or be traumatised for life. Or he'll tell the childminder and they'll think I'm an unfit mother. I'm worried the baby got hurt when I fell or the trauma will affect it, or I'll get an infection from the dirty water that will pass the placenta. Please help, I don't know what to do and feel like the worst mother for failing to keep my babies safe. I wish I would wake up from this nightmare. Should I ring triage?