Just after abit of advice my head is doing constant 360’s. I can’t make up my mind, I’m stressing me out so much, I’m spending most my days crying.
So I’m 23, currently have a 9 month old son and found out I’m pregnant again, 6 weeks at the moment. Im no longer with the father, we split up a few months back and have been on and off ever since.
However he’s made it clear he doesn’t think it’s the best idea to keep it.
However, in my heart I do want it and in my heart I want it all to work out. But then I think of my son, and think about how I will cope with the both of them together on my own.
My ex partner was by my side for the first three months with my first as he was on forlough so had all the support I needed. Whereas Id be totally alone the second time around.
I love being a mom and I feel like the guilt and regret of not keeping it will eat me up inside.
But then I look at my son and want to give him the world and want to spoil him and make him number 1 and I won’t be able to do that with two.
I’m just so confused and lost right now. In my heart I want this baby but in my head I know it’s best I don’t. When I tell myself I should keep it, all the worries and struggles start clouding my brain and I think no it’s best I don’t. But then when I tell myself I shouldn’t keep it, I think of life with a new baby and want it.
Urgh; my heads a mess ! Please help