Anxiety with your first pregnancy

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After 6 years of thinking I'd never conceive naturally with having cystic fibrosis, I was finally blessed and I'm now 8 weeks pregnant! But instead of being able to enjoy what ive always wanted, I'm just overcome with anxiety and stress. I am so scared I'm going to see no heartbeat at my first scan. My worst habit is falling down google holes and scaring myself. I'm already grieving for a child I don't even know ive lost yet. I'm just so panicked when all I want to be is loving this time. My partner tries his best to understand and be there for me but I just don't want to hear him be so positive just incase. Does anyone have any suggestions on how I can ease my anxiety? It's so horrible and scary at this time!

Hello lovely. I totally understand how you feel. I’m very anxious too (I am about other things too) and have had CBT before so trying to use some of those techniques and it is helping - the key thing for me is distraction, when I worry I try to watch some comedy on TV or distract myself with a walk, diverting the mind does help. I also try to ban myself from the Google rabbit hole - it’s hard, but it doesn’t help, I remember my mum telling me she viewed it as a form of self harm and that really hit home, it is, it isn’t helping. Lots of love and I hope you find a way to ease the anxiety soon.

I was also incredibly anxious and to be honest was so the entire time. One thing I’d suggest is stop taking your phone into bed- my Googling was worst late nights/ early mornings after waking for whatever reason

Thank you for the replies! I'm going for an early scan on Wednesday and I thought my mind would be put at ease but now I'm even more worried because it's so close! I'm reading into every body symptom and lack of it's awful! I'm usually full of anxiety and I always expect the worse and now it's even worse with pregnancy even tho this is all I want! I defo need to find more distractions for myself other than going through 100 google searches!