I am early into a 3rd pregnancy, that was kind of planned. I have two young children and to be honest not sure how I will cope. DH is hands on but soon will be working away most days and will not be on hand to support with the children, let alone the new baby. I am also at a point in my career where after having my first two feel I am back on track and genuine opportunity to climb the ladder. DH is the main breadwinner and doesn’t have the opportunity to move jobs (and I wouldn’t want him to as this is a dream job for him).
I’m terrified of how my life will change with a third: I will be the main carer during the work week, and it could affect my ability to go back to work (in any capacity), thus impacting my career progression. With the two I feel I could balance it all - be the main carer and also do well at work.
I don’t have any support on hand - both sets of our parents either don’t live nearby / work and they are getting old so I don’t feel I can ask much of them either.
I’m feeling terrible in this pregnancy and it might well be clouding my judgement, but I am secretly hoping for a miscarriage (I know awful), as I don’t know how I will Cope.
I had an abortion a long time ago, and whilst my head knows it was the right thing to do, I still feel riddled with guilt.
I’m at that point where I am seriously contemplating an abortion, but would am conscious I could be missing something, given my current situation. Will I regret having an abortion? Or will things just slot into place with a 3rd? Any help or advice much appreciated…