Sorry for this message. I am happy I'm pregnant and also so scared as I worry something will go wrong. I feel selfish but I feel so ugly, I have suffered with BDD for a while and I thought being pregnant would be the one time I would feel fat and feel liberated but I just feel so ugly and disgusting and hate myself. I have patches over face which also gets to me. Then I feel such guilt for feeling like this. My partner is fed up with me as I always bring up his ex or the girl he was dating just before me and I compare myself to them and wonder why he is with me. Sorry for the rambling but I just feel so alone as I don't want to burden friends anymore with how I feel. BDD is horrible and hard to understand unless you have it I guess and you feel that people think you are shallow or vain. I thought I had it all under control but now I just feel so lost and helpless