I am 37 and had my DD two years ago - got pregnant quickly, everything was quite smooth. Recently, have been on the fence on if and when to give DD a sibling:I am in a bit of a dead-end job careerwise, but I have a lot of flexibility in terms of choosing my time, working from home, etc. I was really hoping to move on after my first maternity leave, but Covid happened and, despite going to 6 or 7 interviews, nothing came out of it.
In the past month, there has been a flurry of interesting jobs, which would be a bit of a step up from my current role. I am however really torn on whether to apply as I feel now it might be a bit too late to throw myself into a high-pressure role if TTC is on the cards in the near future. I work in a very close-knit industry where everyone knows each other, it wouldn't be great if I were to get pregnant very quickly after moving jobs. I am conscious of my age: 38 in January, if I jump now and have to wait until the end of my probation, probably I will have to delay ttc for another year...
At the same time, I am worried that if I stay in my current role I will never leave, as my life will be even harder after having another child.
Really torn and anxious about what to do. Since Covid, I am finding it so had to make decisions of any kind, let alone life-changing decisions like this!