I'm now about 18/19 weeks and I've gained around 7 -9lb im now 15 stone 5 the biggest I've ever been in my life , im really struggling mentally with this. Im breaking down on a daily basis and keep thinking im going to be so big and unattractive im never going to ever recognise myself. Im not over eating but im not exactly watching everything I eat either, inactive job , walking the dog as much as I can , I just feel bloody awful. I don't even want to leave the house but I have to , nothing fits nd I just want to run away.