Since 5 weeks pregnant I have been wretching frequently, vomiting ~4 times a day. Ive been on doxylamine, reflux med, vitamin B6 and zofran since week 5. I'm wearing seabands and have tried acupuncture, which did not help. I'm eating frequently through out the day... The point is I am doing EVERYTHING that I can and I am still feeling nauseated all day, every minute. I have dysguesia also which has changed the taste of my saliva/mouth. Everytime I swallow i get a rotting taste which also contributes to my nausea.
I feel constantly depressed because I don't have too much hope with my symptoms easing at 12-14 weeks... With my DS1 I was sick until 22 weeks, with DS2 sick the whole 9 months of pregnancy. So I feel like the chances are, I'm going to be sick for a long long time.
Since feeling extremely nasueated all day with rotting taste in my mouth, how I feel emotionally and mentally towards my children have changed. I feel cold towards them / almost indifferent (normally I love them to death). I don't want them around me because their smell makes me start wretching. My husband has been very helpful with the kids and the kids are starting to want daddy more than mummy. I feel sad about how I feel towards the kids and I feel so angry and frustrated and depressed about feeling sick all day for the last 5 weeks ... And the likely possibility of being sick until the end. I've looked up termination options, I can't believe it. I feel so tempted to get rid of this pregnancy as I can't look after my other kids and I feel miserable. I know I wont/can't terminate this baby but I feel so tempted to. I'm just needing a light at the end of the tunnel. If I could have next 7-8months by myself with Netflix and helpful foods I could probably think of surviving but the reality is I have a toddler and a baby to look after, the house is filthy and I can see my husband and children hurting. I don't know what to do. I just feel so trapped and so frustrated.