Concerns in Pregnancy.

[RJ93]

Hi all, I'm new to the site, and I've signed up just to talk and possibly get some advice from other mums and pregnant women about my thoughts and what not. I know this will be a long one, so please if you have some time to read and respond it would be much appreciated 😀

So, me and my partner have been trying for 6 years. And the only thing in these 6 years I've had is an early miscarriage in 2018, I've since convinced myself that I couldn't have kids, and made peace with it to be honest, until recently when I started feeling different, I cant really explain how, I just knew I felt different, so I did a test 12 days ago just to see, not pregnant. I didn't think anything of it and then my partner said 3 days ago ill go buy you another test, so he did, it was one of those clear blue that tells you, and it said pregnant 1-2, and I freaked out truth be told 😅 I did two more tests that day, normal ones, both positive.
I contacted my Dr, she said when those test say 1-2 its more like 4-5, she said a midwife will be in contact with me.
Because of the previous miscarriage and me being a rather paranoid person anyway, I decided yesterday to go to private clinic for a scan, just to see if they could see anything. The woman who did it said she couldn't see a sack or anything yet, but my lining was incredibly thick and thats a sign of my uterus getting ready and not to worry and that I may just be very early. I've spoke to my midwife now, and she's getting me all set up with appointments and stuff next month,the clinic I went to also want me to go back in 3 weeks to see if anything shows up then.

I guess I just wanna know of anyone else has ever experienced something like this, has anyone else had a very early scan and they couldn't see anything? Is it normal for me to be really scared? I just wanna know I'm not alone in my feelings.
Thanks for reading.

If you had a scan at 4 weeks pregnant it's completely normal not to see anything yet, it's incredibly early. Normal to feel scared too, it's all unknown.

Totally normal to see what's been seen on your scan at this gestation. Both pregnancies I've had scans at 7/8 weeks and only seen a small flickering pea sized indistinguishable blob.
My DD now 2 was as a result of 5 years TTC and a round of IVF I was incredibly anxious throughout that pregnancy and had a few panic attacks things started to get a bit easier for me after the 20 week scan once I could feel regular movements. I'm currently 35 weeks with a surprise naturally conceived baby and although my anxiety hasn't been as bad this pregnancy when pregnancies are hard to come by your fears and anxieties are amplified.
If you read any of the threads by women who have got there BFP after IVF treatment you'll more than likely find their feelings mirror yours.
Good luck with your pregnancy I always tried to tell myself that I'd be no more or less devastated if the worse happened and I'd been excited and thought positively than I would be if I didn't let myself get excited and feared the worse. Today you are pregnant no point worrying about what tomorrow may bring and things you can't change.