Feeling ridiculous to be jealous about this

[LegoVsFoot]

Hi all...so I'm pregnant with my second baby, due soon.

My neighbour's just found out her 17 year old daughter is pregnant.

She talked to me about it and told me she's upset and worried but the most important thing is supporting her daughter, she's taking her away this weekend and already making baby clothes.

I'm (very much) in my adult years but no relationship with my mum (was severely abusive) and when I was pregnant with my first (also an adult) my dad's family were extremely horrible, almost causing me to lose the baby from stress - I even remember him driving me to a hospital to try and force me to get an abortion and physically pushing me to the desk so I almost fell (they refused the appointment). Baby's dad threatened suicide, called me a rapist for keeping a baby he didn't want, threatened me daily.

Now with my second I'm very much alone with it, no abuse this time but definitely no supportive relationships. No contact with baby's father. I didn't tell anyone until 5 months because I was dreading it so much.

I just feel extremely jealous of my neighbour's reaction to her daughter. I feel like an idiot...I'm an adult, she's a child, our situations aren't comparable...but I still feel that way.

So sorry you've been dealt hard blows by literally everyone of significance - personally my patents were a bit crap, nothing like you're just selfish when we were kids snd self-centred as adults. My dad never bought Christmas or birthday presents yet didn't hide his hurt and disappointment when he didn't get things from us and vista on or beside the day.
Personally I just do the opposite for my own children, treat them well and make sure they have a supportive upbringing and I make a fuss of them when it's their special days
Good luck and just move on

Thanks it means a lot.

I try to do the same as you - be the parent I never had - but it's hard because a lot of the time I just feel bitter for not having love and support myself.

My family thinks I've isolated myself because they don't see anything wrong with how they've acted, and they say they're there for me 'when I choose to let them in' but whenever I do it's the same story. (They took me in due to the abuse from my mum so I don't feel like I'm really part of the family - they raised foster kids as well and I felt I was treated as one of them).

It's all so stupid and most of the time I do feel I've moved on but then things like this show me I haven't.