Please can someone help - termination today

[Needsupport111]

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I’ve got to be quick

I’m in absolute bits. Found out I was unexpectedly pregnant with baby number 4 last weekend.
Phoned EPU and arranged termination - I’m due in at 11am for first tablet, scan & bloods
Back Tuesday and have to stay in all day. 4 tablets and then repeated every 3 hours if I don’t loose the pregnancy

I don’t know if I can do this
I haven’t slept I can’t eat I can’t stop being sick. I don’t know what to do. It’s head v heart
Please has anyone been in this position

I’m usually much more articulate than this but I can’t think straight and can’t stop crying
Only me and my husband know I don’t have anyone else who knows I can’t beint myself to tell my mum or sister

We have 3 DC already
1 DD age 8
DS age 3 - my son has autism, GDD & SPD. Very dependant still, non verbal, in nappies. Will be going to an IR pre school in September
DS age 2- toilet trained, no concerns with development

I don’t know if I have the capacity for another child.
Financially it isn’t an issue and our house is big enough
But it’s the other stuff
Running 4 around to clubs
Getting ready in the mornings with 4
I don’t know how my son will be with another baby, he is doing really well at the moment and making fantastic
Progress but what if he struggles?

We never planned for 4. Our family is so happy as we are and we are at a lovely stage now the youngest is a bit older

Someone please help. I don’t think I can go through with this but I don’t know if I can cope with 4.

I’m 8 weeks tomorrow. I’ve had 3 c sections.

Sorry for such a ramble post. I’m trying to get everything down.

Sending you lots of strength for the coming days. Please feel free to PM me if you need someone to talk to x

Thinking of you, op.

Don't feel bad if you need to postpone. Id suggest putting it off a few days or so and prioritising sleep. You'll know as much as I do what a big difference this can make to how you cope and how you think.

I'm sure you could get sleeping tablets for a couple of nights to help you come to the best decision for you.

And if counselling is on offer, use it.

Just know what ever you do, no one has a right to judge you.

I’ve been there and 11 years later I know it was the best decision I could have made and therefore I feel no regrets and have never. I had a MMC last year and the procedure was the exact same - it’s horrendous when it isn’t your choice and it’s a very much wanted pregnancy. Make a decision that you know you can live with as difficult as it may be xxx

@Whythesadface

Just know what ever you do, no one has a right to judge you.

Exactly this.

Really hope you're ok no matter which route you decide on. X