Feeling heartbroken

[Babyjune21]

A follow on from during the week many of yous may seen my post about my c section that was due to happen on the 7th of June happy on the 19 of may .... baby’s here happy and healthy she really is beautiful I got out the next day after my c section so been feeling rough , my husband has been wonderful with her and our son and all cleaning etc but I don’t know why I feel this way , I look at her and don’t feel like she was the baby that was inside me ? , I keep hiding in rooms of the house crying I’m so sad that she had to come early it’s like I feel Lost and cheated I don’t know ? I already suffer hugely with mental health issue but I can write down what I want to say but I can’t say it I know I love her but it all just feels so wrong

Can you contact your midwife?
Sounds like you need some support. Your hormones are kicking in too which won't help right now.
What you're feeling isn't nice, but it's not unusual either. You're not doing anything wrong.

So sorry you are feeling this way, @Babyjune21. Like the pp, I think it would be helpful to speak to your midwife and chat through how you're feeling with her. And your OH. Your hormones must be all over the place. Take care

It's day 3, so classic time for baby blues to kick in and all sorts of weird distressing feelings to surface. Your hormones are all over the place at don't let this make you feel like you've done anything wrong or anything like that. But please do ask for more help if you need it xx