Hi ladies,
After ttc for 5 years, and 2 donor fets (1 miscarriage), I'm 6 weeks pregnant. Despite trying for so long, ever since our bfp, I've just felt kind of flat. At first I put it down to not wanting to trust things just yet, but as things go on, and symptoms become stronger, I've found myself feeling worse, not better. I feel like I've made a huge mistake, keep feeling convinced I'm going to get cancer because of the treatment (a worry I had during treatment, which has now become a full-blown obsession), worried I won't be able to bond with my baby, feeling like something terrible is going to happen, basically just feeling like a complete failure and there's no hope. I'm booked in for my first midwife appointment in a couple of weeks, but not sure who I can talk to at this stage. I feel like I should be joyous and excited, but I'm about the farthest from that imaginable. My husband doesn't really understand - he's over the moon, and can't quite fathom why I'm feeling like I do.
Anyone have any similar experiences, or advice? xx