please help

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I have just found out I am pregnant. Me and my partner both work for a church which if they found out I was pregnant / having sex outside of marriage I'd likely lose my job.
I want to keep it but he really doesn't as he says he's not ready to be a father and we both still live with our parents whilst we save to buy a house and get married (rent is expensive!)
I know people say ultimately it's my choice to keep the baby but I feel backed into a corner practically to have an abortion and I don't know what to do

What kind of help are you looking for OP?

I just need advice

Well there is a pregnancy choices section of this website which may help you.

Likewise you can ask for advice on employment matters re your job and whether they could sack you. It would be discrimination if they did bit you haven't said what kind of organisation it is.

There's also a section for relationships.

If you want to keep the baby this is your choice. I think your partner is sensible to say he doesn't want to be a father yet as having a child is not easy. HOWEVER you and your partner should really have had better contraceptive options in place to avoid pregnancy. Are you actually using any?

I am on the coil and have been for the last 2 and half year; I chose this as I was advised it was the most effective form of contraception by my GP.

Could you support yourself if you kept the baby but your partner left you? Would your parents help?

All may not be lost (it's a shock to both of you so you might both just need time) but that might be the outcome.

I'm in my late 30s. Since my early 20s I've had an abortion, miscarriage and then 1 baby (in that order). I had the abortion because it wasn't the right time for me at all. I had a vision for my future. When I had the miscarriage (mid 30s) I had some time to reflect on this, and was okay with it still. Remained okay with it when a baby came; however it is something you will revisit across your life if you choose to go ahead. I personally would have struggled to reflect on the decision based on someone else's insistence, but that's me and it may be fair to say I'm headstrong.
I would search your heart to decide how you feel about abortion. Look it up, research it. My experience is, the rest (where you live etc) can to be discussed and remedied over 9 months.
This is really hard, I'm sorry you are coping with this without the usual support. I believe a phone helpline may be a good place to chat this through.

The other thing is to stay well, healthy and try not to get too stressed physically right now. Your body will be working hard, so look after yourself.

No wonder you feel backed into a corner when you feel your job is on the line and your partner has made it clear what he thinks. However the choice does need to be yours! How do you actually feel about the pregnancy? It sounds like faith is a big part of your life if you and your partner both work for the church? In which case could it really be the worry for him about the church finding out? It sounds like the kind of church you are talking about would also be very pro-life and that might lead to you struggling to reconcile going through with an abortion and being part of the church as well. If you were both to have different jobs could that maybe change how you both feel about things?
Would your family support you if you wanted to keep the baby and raise it on your own?