Pregnant with no2 and petrified

[Mamatoalittlebear]

DH and I were ttc all of last year for baby 2 but to no avail. I put us on a break from ttc in November as mentally it was destroying me. I got really healthy, threw myself into healthy eating and exercise and lost 2 stone. Mentally never felt better and my body has never looked better. Periods became irregular with the weight loss. And I've just found out I'm pregnant with baby no2. 6 weeks gone. I am in complete shock and struggling to feel happy with our news. I feel terrible, its all I wanted last year but since taking the time to really focus on myself and feeling great for it, I'm now gutted to be pregnant. Lockdown has literally given zero frills to life and I was excited to get on nights out and start living again. I know I want another baby and hubby is thrilled. Am I a terrible person for being an emotional wreck right now and not being able to come to terms with it? Is this just the shock of it or should I be concerned?

It’s the shock and it will settle. It’s good news and I know it sounds like forever away, but after this baby you will have plenty of time for your plans. X

I felt the same at the beginning of my second pregnancy OP, I think it's the shock and the fact that you feel so ill and just not yourself, it really does knock you for six. It took me a good while to get used to the idea, well into the second trimester to be honest, but it does start to feel easier as it goes on. Be kind to yourself

Thank you @Crustybreadandbutter its very true. @BaaHumbugg I didn't think of it like that. I'm completely exhausted at the moment and SO emotional. Its reassuring to hear. We suffered a miscarriage before our first DD and part of me I think is scared this will happen again. Miscarriage never leaves you, even after your rainbow baby. I think part is shock and the other is me telling myself not to get used to the idea as pregnancy doesn't result in a baby. Feeling like a terrible mother