Overdue & fed up!

[GJS90]

Hi,

I'm just writing on here because I'm 40+6 weeks, been feeling like labour was coming for the past 3 weeks (midwives thought it was happening as I was having contractions at my 38 week apt!) but it'a still stopping and starting.
I know I sound ridiculous but just hoping someone knows how I feel and can offer some words of comfort
This is my second baby, I have a 2.5 year old daughter and had a very long and gruelling labour with her which I think was exacerbated by being in hospital with various changes of staff etc. and feeling quite stressed / sleep-deprived. This time around I've felt fairly calm in the lead up as I've planned a home birth with a birthing pool. I've always told myself to keep an open mind but am due to be induced in 6 days which I'm very anxious about and, even if I refuse, a home birth wouldn't be accepted by my hospital at that stage as I'd be considered high risk due to being overdue. My daughter is really picking up on all my feelings (physical & emotional) and I'm just a bit down in the dumps trying to put on a brave face for her when I'm quite sore and struggling now a lot of the time.
I've had a sweep and a bloody show but nothing has progressed... So fed up! And also feel like a div because there isn't long to go whichever way I look at it.
Sorry for the essay! X

Hi @GJS90 hope your feeling a little better today, although by the sounds of your situation you are probably getting fed up! I can't relate just yet as I'm only 28 weeks with my second but struggling with hypermesis with my toddler has been a huge struggle and I've felt incredibly guilty as its been hard on her.

My friend has just been through something similar with slow labour over weeks and she got to the point of begging for a c-section as she was so uncomfortable, tired and just wanted it over. Do not feel you are alone and your so close to holding your baby. I was induced with my first and was dreading it but I have to say it was not at all a bad experience. The pesseries helped to get me effected and breaking my waters kick started contractions, 5 hours later I had my baby girl!
With my friend the contractions she had been having over weeks definitely helped as when she finally went into labour she barely made it to the hospital, so hopefully your body is getting prepared nicely for you to deliver 🤞

@Olivebranch26 ahh thank you so much, your reply really has made me feel better. Pregnancy is such an emotional rollercoaster isn't it! People who haven't been through it probably think "you've only got another week to get through!" But every day feels like a bloody week when you get to the end, especially if you're overdue and/or experiencing any significant discomfort, not to mention trying to look after another child/children too.
So sorry to hear you're suffering from HG, I had that with my first pregnancy and it was horrendous so I really feel for you. I struggled commuting into London in a really hot summer but I now know that was nothing compared with trying to care for a toddler, luckily my sickness subsided at around 15 weeks this time around (I was sooo anxious about it). I really hope you have lots of support and manage to get some days to yourself, it's such a tough thing to go through and I can really relate to the guilt you feel not being yourself for your daughter. But as everyone keeps saying to me, they soon bounce back and we're giving them a bestie for life by having another baby!
Your story about the induction has made me feel a million times better as I've heard so many negative stories and also, your friend experiencing similar to me with the long pre-labour part and then having a speedy delivery is something for me to cling onto
Wishing you lots of luck with the rest of your pregnancy & labour x