Im not sure what I want from this, think I just need to write it down to gain some clarity.
I'm 37 weeks pregnant with my second dc. During my first dc's birth I experienced the cord stuck around her neck and then shoulder distortia. The aftercare was pretty appaling. Anyway I found my dd birth traumatic, which had an impact upon my mental health in the form of ptsd. This pregnancy has helped me to come to terms with what I experienced. Throughout this pregnancy I've been told shoulder distortia is just something that happens, it's difficult to predict. Today I had an ultrasound scan and they found my dc is healthy but is going to be a large baby, much larger than they thought. Dd was 8lb1oz and dc is 8lb already. Suddenly I'm told I can either have an induction this Friday or opt for a c-section. I suddenly feel terrified and just not sure what to do, the consultant was great and has given until Wednesday to decide. I just don't know what to do, go ahead with a virginal birth which still has the risk of shoulder distortia or opt for a c-section which has its own complications. I feel so overwhelmed.