Hypobirthing - anyone else cry & why do I?

[NC4UmpteenthTime]

It seems to trigger something in me but I have no idea what and why!
It's either my hormones or something deep within!
At first I thought it was the background music, but then on a different script it seemed to be the visualisation of being alone possibly, yet knowing there'd be people there for support. Anyway I blub!!! Thought it was surpressed depression but I've had some counselling and come out of it feeling positive so...? Am I just too soppy?! / Highly emotional?!

I broke down completely at one of our hypnobirthing classes and had to hide in the loo with DH and the teacher outside the door, frantic. I think it was when we were asked to visualise a safe place from our childhoods and I realised I didn’t have one.

@NinthCircle oh no you poor thing! That must have been terrible 😢 can't imagine how you felt
Our instructor hasn't asked us to do that, it's all nature based like going for a walk on a beach or in the woods... I'm a big nature fan so no idea why I can't take to it. I very thankfully had a happy childhood so I have nothing obvious to say 'ah that's because of memory X'... It scares me a little as I wonder if I've blocked something out... I didn't want to explore it with the counselling as I thought if it was something huge and repressed from the past would it be the best time to bring it all up again...
The only obvious thing to my mind is that I've suffered years and years, possibly my whole life of severe loneliness for one reason and another and these visualisations just remind me of it all?

@NinthCircle did you use the hypobirthing in the end during labour or did you drop it after your experience? Xx

I did find pregnancy gave me vivid flashbacks to my childhood - perhaps you’re revisiting loneliness?

No, I practiced hypnobirthing very seriously all the way through pregnancy — DH did the visualisations daily with me — and was fully on board with it, but I found it completely useless when I actually went into labour. It simply didn’t help at all with managing the pain. I know others have found it good, but looking back, for me it was a total waste of time and (a lot of) money.

I hope you find it more effective.

@NinthCircle oh that's a shame it was a waste of time for you both. I'm doing an NHS one so thankfully it's free. I think I'll take a few days things away from it but may just park the visualisations. They are just not helping!

Flashbacks about mildly uncomfortable experiences are awful let alone what you went through, so sorry to hear that. Thank you for reading and replying to me tonight xxx

@NC4UmpteenthTime I didn’t find the visualisations helpful either 😊 I used the Positive Birth Company’s Digital Pack and just took the parts from it that I found most helpful. I know some people love the positive affirmations etc but that just wasn’t for me. Personally I just found that hypnobirthing helped me by teaching me how to tune out and focus on my breathing and focus on what was actually happening in my body at each stage of labour.
I had an induction, which I had really wanted to avoid, and hypnobirthing definitely helped me stay calm and take my mind off the pain 😊

I would just take the bits you can from it and don’t worry about the rest 😊

@MM321 thank you ☺️ Xx

Me too! I thought something was wrong with me. It really triggers me, I’ve just left it but feel really uncomfortable about how it affected me

@LemonadeLocomotive it's so strange isn't it? I'm glad it's not just me! Xxx