Hi all I’m just here for some advice please and support I guess.
So basically I have 3 children who are all over the age of 8 to my previous partner of 16 years. We split a few years back on good terms, however he moved on quite quickly and now doesn’t speak to me. It took me a while to move on and find my now partner who I have been with for 18 months.
I have been on the mini pill since meeting my new partner and fell pregnant to him twice last year which both ended in a miscarriage one at 7 weeks one at 10 weeks! 
Obviously this was an upsetting time for both of us but after I grieved for the loss I couldn’t help but feel relieved. I’m starting uni next month and my focus went completely on that. My new partner doesn’t have any children and asked if after uni we could try for a baby to which I agreed if we were still together then yes I would!
So I made an appointment to get a coil fitted as clearly the mini pill isn’t working for me, they asked me to do a home pregnancy test the week before my appointment (as still no period from last miscarriage) so I done one and boom POSITIVE again!! Im absolutely devastated that’s this is happening again, my partner is over the moon and I told him how I felt to which he replied do what’s best for you! Obviously I was thinking about a termination until I had an emergency scan last week to which she said your 11+5 weeks, total shock I thought I was something like 5-6 weeks.
Now I’m stuck and scared and worried. I don’t think I can do an abortion now that I know I’m now past 12 weeks.
I suffered with bad PND after every pregnancy with my last children and I have 0 family support at all I lost my mam 9 years ago and don’t see my dad. My partner works full time so I would be alone with a baby and I’m so scared I will get poorly again and not be able to cope.
I also can’t help but feel guilty towards my ex partner?? I don’t know why as he moved on first and is happy I just feel like I’m doing him wrong somehow [cry]
Please don’t judge me or be negative I’m in such a bad place and just need some advice and support if you can
Tia xx